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He opened his right
palm and said; “Show me your hand” I barely heard what was he said to me. I saw
his face then to his hand like confused kid.
Damn! Why I felt that I
was more stupid in front on him. I just couldn’t focus with this closeness. I
loved it but in the same time I felt strange (in good way)
He waited me patiently
as he opened his palm so I showed him my right hand shakily. Could you believe
me, he held my hand for seconds, I didn’t remember how long.
Oh my God! Mom, Jesse
was holding my hand right now. Hey world, Jesse held my hand! He held me (my
hand). Could I just pass out in his arm?
Take a look at the picture. Just tell me if you have a good comment. I don’t take the bad statement.
Standing so close by Jesse and held by him, I didn’t know what to say. I though that was the best moment in my life. What I supposed to do? Smiled? I did it. He was just too good to be true, haha..
Event simply as a smile, I couldn't do it rightly.
Don’t just get bored
with my nerve words, I was totally nerve wrecking as I stood so close next to
him. I had no idea what-so-ever what was wrong with me but I couldn't help but think that it must have been related to lack energy and strength. Skipped the lunch and didn't take my dinner yet and on monthly cycle! I didn't feel right as I felt in a haze both hungry and nerve. Gasping for breath I cherished the moment as I felt the luckiest girl in the world. Time passed
quickly, and Din said it was her turn. Jesse’s movement pulled me sharply from
my thoughts and looked up in time to see him stepped away. Shivering from the
coldness as Jesse released my hand, I just nodded dumbly.
I let out a breath as I
picked the camera from Din’s hand. Damn! Why couldn’t she just leave us (me
with him) for a moment? How could she just ruin the moment? She knew I was so
desperate to have a great moment with Jesse and she knew how I adore him badly.
Why she wanted to take pic with him too, instead she didn’t like him as much I
do.
Mix between anger,
confused and happy at the same time, I could only stare at Din and
Jesse with nerve. I clicked twice as I had the good picture of him and her. After
smiled and thanked, Jesse left us.
Forgetting how pissed I was at her careless as I saw how cute Jesse was. Don’t tell him I said that. He was just good looking at the camera as he really is. I was envy because my picture with him wasn’t good as I expected. Look how nervous I was? And somehow I had felt his nerve too. That wasn’t possible right? That was in my imagination, right? How could he be nervous standing next his fans? It was impossible. I could feel my cheek turn red when I glanced at my hand and remembering his warmth there.
Din dragged me to where Jelte stood. Din wanted to take picture with him again. I rolled my eyes at her. Do as you like girl as we don’t this night forever.
Smiling brightly toward
Din and I with a wonder, Jelte said Ok as she asked him again. This time, she
wanted me to take picture of Jelte and her with her phone instead with the
camera. As I done catching their pose, we re-thanked him. I showed her the
graphic as we stepped and looked around to the front stage.
I marked Kay talked with
some of girls. Pointed him with my eyes to Din, her replied was just
let him be. Glancing into Kay for a moment, I noted Klass stood towerly on the
other side. Take a picture with Kay was our desire. Noted the girls chatted
with him happily, we didn't want to ruin those girls moment.
As we decided to take picture with Klaas, we called his name. He turned his head towards us as he noticed the source of the voice. Taking picture with Klaas wasn’t easy. Poor him, being 200 cm (6ft) he was lowering his posture to match mine. Sorry Klass, standing by him, I was once again reminded me of how short I was, not to mention, I was only 141 cm (4 ft). His height intimidated me. Look at the giant artist and his dwarf. He shouldn’t do that but I thanked him sincerely. While taking picture with Klaas, I noted Kay stepped away. His movement mixed me up more. As he left, we lost our opportunity being on the same frame with him. He disappeared without giving us to say hello. Yeah, I loved to say more than hello to him. Haha, I know that will be impossible to chat with him casually. Being so close to Kay will froze us both. It scared and fascinated us (maybe just me) at the same time. I didn’t ogling him. No! He was just too incredible to look away from.
People moved back to their table as our time to waltz back to our table. As I stared up at the place we sat before, I couldn’t help but gape with eyed wonder to our neighbor. All of them, all Valerius members just sat on left of our table. Yup, there was two girls, they were their LO, I guess *full of assumption*, Jana who we recognized her as Valerius manager, One man which Din and I noted his name is Peter, Xander, Kay, Klass, Jesse, Jelte.
Crap! I really needed to stop staring into their place. Stepping into our table was like to stepping into another place. They were just so close. Did they just sit there, next to our table? Oh My God helped me.
My heart was pounding, I
made sure to pay extra attention to where I was stepping. I was scared I would
bump by the table legs, the sands or even my foot. Yes dear, I (maybe) have to
take nerve issued off with a pro helps.
Din stepped coolly as other regular customers and I just tailed her. Gulping I looked down at my missing chair. There were only two chairs left. My previous chair, on Din left was missing as the two others. The rest was hers and one empty chair on her right. Din sat on her previous chair as I put my ass on her right, my opposite was Valerius table. I could feel my cheek hot embarrassingly.
Did the employee mention
to them, their neighbor was their friends?
After examining to the
suspect, the guys said in unison they didn’t know them, they didn’t know their
neighbor. Did they guessed that must be a mistake, the waiter misheard fans
with friend?
Before the show,
Between one of
Backstage Café employee (no name, a guy) and Valerius members.
“You will sit there” He
said to one of Valerius members, Kay while pointing to the table. Jelte joined
him and looked to the place where he pointed.
“What’s going on” Jesse
walked in between Kay and Jelte.
“He said that we will
sit there, on the center, am I right?” Kay turned his head to the guy as he
informed brother.
Jesse just mentioned
with “O” when he replied his brother.
Smiled to the guys, he
explained to them that the café received more reservation that night even on Monday.
He added; “On the right
of your table, that will be your friend. Your friends called my an hour ago”
Jesse almost chocked
his beer as he noted his explanation.
“Friends?” he knitted
his eyebrow to Kay and Jelte in confusion.
“Lets just meet them” Kay
just shrugged his shoulder and walked out.
Jesse and the other followed
him.
That scene played in my
head again and again. Did it really happen? I don’t know. So just don’t ask me.
My mind split into view parts, excluded intellectual?? Gosh, am I dead?
Moving my chair next to
where Din sit that was possible but that thought didn't appear in my mind.
Damn!
So sorry its taken me so long there's been bunch things to do lately...
and today on November 14, 2012 one of my big brother, my best friend, my fellow worker was passed away. Rest in peace dear Bli Kadek Indrayana. God has you in His keeping and we have you in our heart.
We enjoyed the home band performance to tranquilize the tension. We really had fun. I still didn’t believe they were so close. Savored the music with little dance, I noted Kay turned his head to our table. Maybe he noticed our existence on front of the stage a moment ago, maybe. Or maybe, the scene that played in my head did really happen? Did it?? I felt number of various emotions running through me as I tried to rationalize what was happening. Did I think too much in little brain of mine?
If Kay or the guys didn’t think that we were stalker, we were fine with that. We didn’t stalk them. We just too love to attend their live performance.
Sitting on opposite, I could see their whole table. I marked Xander also turned his head to our direction. My brain full with; what was going on? I was lucky to be there with my partner in crime to meet our idol, Valerius. But, really, I asked to my self again, what was going on? What was on their thought when one of them noted us there, sat casually so close with their table? Or did they thought, how could that Din and I got that spot? Damn, did the employee told them, the one that reserve the table was their friends but then, they didn’t recognize us as their friend but “they are our fans”?
I couldn’t face them. I lied guys, I told the employee her to get the best spot. I didn’t have intention to bother or stalk you all. Yes, I was guilty as hell.
Trust us guys, Din and I aren’t your usual fans. We were there because we really love and enjoy your performance.... (and of course to meet you guys) But we were different than the others fans, we have different ways to show our love and adoration.
