UNTOLD

“My tears pour down like a rain”

Pretend is killing. 

Is so hard not to tell that I am more than care.

Cant imagine your reaction, that will freak me out.

“I wear a mask everywhere you are around”

I am scare that someday you will know how I really feel then you will run off my world.

“I met people from all around the world, why you are the one that give me the impression”

I didn't regret we meet. I really don't regret that I deeply care about you. I just regret that I keep it to myself

“May I ask? Do you feel it too? Or do you ever recognize mine? Do you really not like me at all as the way I do? ”

How If I never tell you the way I really feel towards you

I am scare that you will hate me after my confession. If you just laugh at me, I can handle it.

“I just breathed deeply and keep positive”

I retold myself again and again.

My stomach turned when I heard you or somebody said about your lover.

I don’t have to worry, my mask already there to safe me.

“If I spill all my feeling to you, what will you do?”

I have plenty time to tell you but I choose not to. 
I am scare that you don't have same feeling as mine, and you will hate me

“Should I put my mask off?”

It’s so hard to keep my mind blank when you suddenly sit so close to me.

How can I explain to the whole world if I suddenly be blunted and jumped to your lap?

“How could you make me want to hug you in the first place? Even I pretend not to”

Stand and stare. Do you ever call me to hug you, to feel your heartbeat? Don’t you feel that pull too? Or that’s just me. Maybe I am insane to think that way.

“If disappear is the only option, I’ll pick that”

I’ll be happy to see the smile of people I love even without me in it.

I really wished you seal your happiness with your lover soon so I have no chance. That will help me knowing my place. I will break to knot but don’t worry, I can survive.

If there were no vows between you and her it will keep my hope even I pretend not to have at all.

God gave me strength not to give up easily.

“Pretend”

I prefer to fall to anybody then heartbroken come than deeply care without not knowing how to tell you.

I should hate you, that way better in every single aspect.

Flat is my weapon towards you. I was success in one or two, but I fall on third round.

“Can I just jump to your embrace without worrying the whole world?”

I decided not to exist the feeling about you but my wall is fall apart when you come, when I heard your voice, when I see your smile, when I see you down.

How long can I survive standing so close by you without telling you how I really feel?

If I can rewind, I prefer to think that you are weird as my first impression you gave to me.